It's hard sometimes!!!
So, I just found out that I'm going to be a father again! While being excited at the prospect....there's a whole lot more to it than that.
When my wife was pregnant with our last child, it was the absolute worst experience. It was literally a nightmare. I wife has epilepsy, and she started having anywhere from 8-12 seizures a day. It was horrible. After most of them we would have to run to the hospital, they would admit her. She'd be there for as long as 5 days, while I watched helplessly, trying to calm our oldest. This continued for about 4-5 months. During that time we had to switch delivery hospitals, as she was now seeing a doctor that specialized in high risk pregnancies. We hated the hostpital. Our oldest son could only visit her for about 15 min. a day. They had a strict policy of not allowing children in, whereas the hospital we started with would let him in for any amount of time.
After the birth, the seizures stopped. But the migraines got worse. A bad migrain would then trigger a seizure. More trips to the ER. Fast forward 3 years and we find ourselves coming to grips with another pregnancy. Protection failed. We had talked about having another child, but years from now. I am scared that we will go through the same things. My wife was also due to have some studies done where they would hook her up to all the neurological devices known to man, and record a seizure. Some answers finally. Now those answers will have to wait. I am scared for my wife's health. While praying, and thinking over the matter, I came to the conclusion that we should not go through with this pregnancy, I hated myself for feeling this way, but I have a family here now to look after. I also have a bad feeling about all of this.
My wife decided that she could never forgive herself if we aborted this unborn child. I don't think that I could survive another pregnancy like the last one. So her decision left me hurt and angry. Our marriage has been rotten for the last couple of weeks. We keep talking and now it is getting better. There are so many things to take care of, and just not enough of me to go around. My work is busier than it has ever been with the introduction of some new laws that the Coast Guard is to enforce.
well, that's all for now.
When my wife was pregnant with our last child, it was the absolute worst experience. It was literally a nightmare. I wife has epilepsy, and she started having anywhere from 8-12 seizures a day. It was horrible. After most of them we would have to run to the hospital, they would admit her. She'd be there for as long as 5 days, while I watched helplessly, trying to calm our oldest. This continued for about 4-5 months. During that time we had to switch delivery hospitals, as she was now seeing a doctor that specialized in high risk pregnancies. We hated the hostpital. Our oldest son could only visit her for about 15 min. a day. They had a strict policy of not allowing children in, whereas the hospital we started with would let him in for any amount of time.
After the birth, the seizures stopped. But the migraines got worse. A bad migrain would then trigger a seizure. More trips to the ER. Fast forward 3 years and we find ourselves coming to grips with another pregnancy. Protection failed. We had talked about having another child, but years from now. I am scared that we will go through the same things. My wife was also due to have some studies done where they would hook her up to all the neurological devices known to man, and record a seizure. Some answers finally. Now those answers will have to wait. I am scared for my wife's health. While praying, and thinking over the matter, I came to the conclusion that we should not go through with this pregnancy, I hated myself for feeling this way, but I have a family here now to look after. I also have a bad feeling about all of this.
My wife decided that she could never forgive herself if we aborted this unborn child. I don't think that I could survive another pregnancy like the last one. So her decision left me hurt and angry. Our marriage has been rotten for the last couple of weeks. We keep talking and now it is getting better. There are so many things to take care of, and just not enough of me to go around. My work is busier than it has ever been with the introduction of some new laws that the Coast Guard is to enforce.
well, that's all for now.
posted by coastie at 8:30 PM
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